Disclaimers: Not even close to mine.

Spoilers: X2, some vague mentions of season one
Smallville.

Summary: See title. Call it five things that haven't
happened to Kurt. Yet.

Ratings Note: NC-17.

Author's Note: It occurred to me, while reading through
some of my old stories, that I *used* to write quite a bit
of porn. Recently, even. My attempt to recapture the
mojo.

Acknowledgments: To the IRC crew for audiencing and
encouragement, especially Bas for certain aspects of
mutant biology. Thanks also to Jenn, and to Andraste
for "Ten Thousand Candles."

Feedback: Always. leytelj@gmail.com

*
Wonder
*

It is not what he expected.

To say the very least.

The girl is so young, yes, and that is a part of it, but
also...

He has never been in this position before. And the words
make him blush, because... yes. But in all seriousness,
beyond the sex, the physical aspects of which make him
shiver and ache and oh, so many times he has found
himself on the edge of teleporting directly to her bed,
and never mind the danger inherent in playing
surprise-games with *any* of these people...

But... when he had arrived, she'd already *had* a love.
Two, if you counted the one she could not have. He
had never even *considered*...

Ah, but that is a lie, yes?

She was beautiful then and is even more beautiful now,
hidden not at all behind a rainbow of silk scarves
(recovered from his time in the circus) and shifting and
moving and --

"Yes, Kurt..."

Oh, yes and *yes*. There is nothing here he cannot have,
and everything is so lovely. The hint of her sweat as he
presses his tongue to the green scarf over her throat,
the hardness of muscle hidden beneath such soft skin,
such *smooth* skin --

"I can't *believe* I never thought of this before --"

Gloved hands in his hair, yanking him into a kiss. There
is a touch of her perfume on the blue scarf over her face
and he thinks he could maybe taste it, maybe just lose
himself in this moment. Silk on his tongue getting wet,
wetter, and when they'd first tried this there had been
laughter, yes, and just a few times when choking
seemed a possibility, but now there is only the sounds
she makes.

That *they* make.

She hums against him and spreads her legs -- gently,
thinly mummified -- and wraps them around his waist
and pulls him *in*. Against her where it is hot, and wet,
and he does not think he knows how to appreciate this.

He has to try, just the same. "Behold, thou art fair, my
love; behold, thou art fair; thou hast doves' eyes.
Behold, thou art fair, my beloved, yea, pleasant: also
our bed is green. The beams of our house are cedar, and
our rafters of fir..."

She giggles. "Hey, are you *praying*?"

He nuzzles her throat and smiles, letting her feel his
teeth. "Perhaps, just a little." Smiles at her. "It seemed
appropriate."

She smiles, and strokes the scars on his face. "Mmm. I
know those bits. My beloved is mine, and I am his..."

And ah, there is something in the Book for all things, all
people, but perhaps especially for this. So easy to be
gentle, *reverent*, to stroke his way down and down
and she is wet through the silk, welcoming and
fragrant and... his?

A dangerous conceit, but perhaps unavoidable in times
like this, surrounded by her and working his way
carefully, so carefully, inside.

"I never met anyone like you," she'd said the first time,
and traced a path over his scars, his nose, his mouth
before he could hide the sharpness of his teeth.

"You're not ashamed of anything, are you?" And she'd
listened to him talk about his faith, about how God
could never create anything that wasn't, on some level,
wholly beautiful.

"Show me something beautiful," she'd said, and he'd
kissed her before he knew what his body was planning,
and she wrapped her arms around his neck and held
him close, held him steady when he started to shake.

And there was awkwardness, and hurt that he would
do anything to wipe away, but Marie walks with him tall
and proud, and if he will not dare to demand their
censure, then she will.

And they are careful, yes, so very careful, but it only
seems that way when they are not together. Like this,
they can only move in tandem, her hand on him rolling
the condom on. His mouth pressing everywhere he can
reach, the silk utterly drenched with her scent, his
doubts and hesitations lost to the perfume of it.

"So beautiful," she says, and Kurt has to close his eyes.

Because like this, with her, it cannot be anything but
true.

*
Eros
*

Logan smiles in battle. He tells the children, when they ask,
that it never fails to make an enemy apprehensive, but
Kurt has always known that it wasn't quite that simple.
Logan takes a simple, fierce, and undeniable joy in the clash
of arms, and it is... disturbing.

Perhaps mostly because Kurt can see it in himself *Feel*
it. Before Stryker, he had never considered using his
strength and flexibility for anything beyond tricks and
games. Performance.

There is something in him that has always thrilled to the
crowds, the sound of their voices blending together into
something more and less than speech, animal-pure and
thrumming beneath his skin.

And yet, the X-Men's cause is just, and he must admit...

It is exhilarating to leap into a fight, to kink and punch
and slap with his tail, to take their weapons -- if they
have not made *themselves* weapons -- and teleport
them far away where they cannot hurt anyone else.

It makes his blood pound, makes him feel every scar on
his body as something like a holy absence, like a
wordless prayer of the flesh. No amount of meditation
could come close, could *ever* approach anything like
the visceral *thrill* of wrapping his tail around the throat
of someone who lives to kill and slamming them
senseless against a wall.

"I wouldn't want anyone else at my back," Logan says,
and Kurt has to wonder.

Does he smell it on him? Does he recognize that the pulse
in his throat has nothing to do with fear?

The Brotherhood is... the only fear is in the fact that they
*believe*. Beyond that, they are nothing compared to
high school students dragged to see a show they believe
is only for children, or to the people in the smaller towns
and villages who had to be told Kurt was only in special
makeup and yes, yes, he is not a liar.

This, too, fuels him as he fights. And he has always known
that he could become angry, that he was no different from
other men, and that the pain in his life could, potentially,
make him something very ugly, indeed, and yet...

And yet when Logan takes his hands and spins him into a
flying kick, or when he teleports against and off wall after
wall until his opponent is dizzy enough to take out with a
single punch, or when it's all over and Logan grins that
secret smile at him from across the aisle of the jet...

He knows it will be all right. There are other ways to loose
the things inside him he has always worked to deny. There
are good works he can do with all those parts of him he
would hide in scars or prayer.

And when they are back at the school, and everyone is
sleeping but those of them who lived in night as much as
Kurt himself, and Logan himself...

Logan often doesn't let him shower when they get home.
Or, like now, follows him into the bathroom that they
share and turns the water on full and hot until the whole
room is steaming and hot and Kurt is sweating even
more.

"I saw you out there," Logan says, and doesn't finish the
thought. Cups him through his pants and licks a wet
stripe up his neck and behind his ear and presses him
against the tile.

"There's more in there than just the little blue preacher,
isn't there?" he says, and Kurt considers telling him that
we are rarely entirely what we seem, that God is, yes, in
the details, but really, when Logan has him, the most he
can usually manage is a moan.

Choked out curses in German and Romany that he didn't
remember learning.

Encouragement in the English the man seems to
determined to make him forget.

Logan's teeth are nowhere near as sharp as his own, but
they burn against his throat, make him tilt his head back
and open his mouth on something that might have even
been words before Logan got his hands on him.

Inside his clothes --

"So many damned *layers* --"

Inside his clothes, and one hand sliding up and over his
belly, chafing the scars with calluses. One hand around
his penis sliding down careful of the foreskin and
tugging at the ring.

"One day you're going to have to tell me about this..."

And Kurt has to laugh, and it makes the muscles in his
belly move in ways that are suddenly interesting and
quite wonderful. Slides his hand into Logan's tight,
black uniform pants. "It seemed," he says, "like a good
idea at the time."

He can feel Logan grin against his cheek. "Yeah, I was
drunk, too, but the skin just grew back." Another lick
and a squeeze and then they're kissing, eyes open and
Kurt can see the laughter in Logan's eyes, smell sweat
and blood and sex, and he thinks this is maybe not so
different than the circus.

Except for the fact that the clowns here can freeze you
where you stand, and the dancing bears there had never
shown nearly so much interest in his penis.

He clutches their hands together, used to the moment's
awkwardness as Logan adjusts for three fingers instead
of five, and then they are guiding each other, Kurt
wanting faster and Logan wanting harder and it doesn't
last, *never* lasts long. He comes shuddering, tail
winding and clutching at Logan's thigh and falls away
from the kiss laughing.

Already replete as Logan comes on his sex and belly,
already waiting for the next battle.

Ready on more levels than he can quite understand.

*
Surprise
*

He really needs to learn to look where he is going. Or, at
the very least, learn to plan ahead. Stealing General Spring's
hard drive had never been considered an *easy* mission,
and certainly there had been any number of soldiers to get
away from, but *still*.

He had learned early on that teleporting without knowing
precisely where he was going could lead to any number of
unpleasant surprises, and this is...

Well, he can't say that it is *exactly* unpleasant. At least
not yet. The bed beneath his feet is soft and large, the
sheets soft cotton.

From what he can see of the room, it is very nice, indeed.
Art on the walls he would've liked to study, and many,
many bookcases. There is a breeze coming through the
open window that reminds him of performances in the
German countryside, and makes him breathe a little
deeper. Yes, it is all very pleasant for the eyes and
other senses, but he does not think the man on the bed
is very happy to see him.

"Ah. Hello." He switches the CPU to one hand and waves
with the other.

The man blinks. "Aren't you guys usually green?"

He tilts his head. "I do not know any green mutants, but
I am sure there are some."

The man nods slowly, and turns over until he is fully on
his back. He is curiously hairless, but does not seem in
any other way different from other humans. "Is that
*my* hard drive you're holding, by any chance?"

"No, no I do not think so. It belongs to General Spring."

"I see. Was General Spring in my house?"

It is possible... Kurt takes a closer look at his surroundings.
Stone walls, nothing that looks particularly military... "No,
I do not think so."

Another slow nod. "And the reason *you're* in my house?"

He smiles apologetically. The man blinks at his teeth, but
doesn't seem especially afraid. It is a good sign. "A small
accident while I was teleporting."

"Teleporting."

"Yes."

"I see." The man holds out his hand. "Lex Luthor. What
can I do for you?"

Kurt shifts the CPU to under his left arm, and shakes.
"Kurt. Kurt Wagner. It is a pleasure to meet you."

"Uh, huh. You know, you can put that down if you want."

"Oh, thank you so much. It is very heavy."

"I'm sure."

He places the machine carefully on the floor next to the
bed and smiles at the man -- Luthor -- again.

"So you just kind of... wound up here."

"Yes, Mr. Luthor. I sometimes lose my way when I do
not know where I am going. I am very sorry to interrupt
your rest."

Brief bark of laughter. "No, really, that's all right. You're
definitely more polite than my usual random, midnight,
mutant visitors. And please, call me Lex."

"All right, Lex. You may call me Kurt."

Welcoming gesture.

"You... know many mutants?"

A small smile, just a little sharp. "You could say that."

Kurt isn't sure what to say to that, so he simply nods, and
shifts a little in his crouch.

"That can't be a very comfortable position." And Lex is
looking him up and down.

"Oh, no, it's fine. I was in the circus for many years."

"A-ha." Lex shifted over a bit to the side. "Still,
wandering into military bases..." A question in his eyes.

Kurt nods.

"Wandering into military bases to steal the property of
generals must be a little... stressful."

"Oh, yes. So many guns!"

Lex's tongue slips over his upper lip, and there is a look
of... perhaps bemusement? Lex shakes his head and
pats the bed beside him. "No reason not to relax a bit,
right?"

"Well, I should really get back to my friends..."

"By teleporting, right." Another laugh, somewhat
high-pitched. "But..." He raises an eyebrow.

"Yes?"

"You've probably got a *few* minutes before you have
to... teleport away, right?"

"A few...?"

And Lex turns the sheet back, just enough for Kurt to
see that he is, in fact, naked under there. And apparently
hairless all over. He blinks.

"Oh."

Lex smiles.

Kurt thinks, for a moment, about the other X-Men, and
then for another moment about all those *guns*, and then
for another moment about Lex's smile, and Lex's very
smooth looking body. Kurt smiles. "A little while, yes."

Lex hands find his uniform fastenings immediately -- much
faster than *he* had the first time he'd tried to pull the
thing off. "Is this leather?"

"Oh, yes. We all wear leather."

Lex nods and licks his lips again. "Of *course* you do."

And then Lex is laughing again, kissing him messily and
sliding his hands under the leather and rolling them over
until he's straddling Kurt.

"Is this all right for your... tail?"

"Oh yes, thank you."

Another laugh. "Oh, anytime."

And really, Kurt had never known the uniform *could*
come off this fast, but Lex seems like a very clever
young man. With clever long fingers and a very, very
clever tongue -- "Oh --"

"Mm-hmm..."

And then Kurt can't think very much at all, because Lex
is *very* clever, and *very* friendly, and really very
enthusiastic, what with those hands on his hips and that
mouth...

Hot, and wet, and tight around him and then Lex looks
up at him and Kurt feels his eyes roll back in his head
and spreads his legs. Feels Lex laugh around him and
that's perfect, that's wonderful, always so good to find
someone with a healthy sense of fun.

*So* good.

"Lex --"

"Mm?"

"I think... I think I am going to come now."

"Mmm."

And Lex wraps one hand around the base of his cock and
pumps and squeezes and sucks at the head and Kurt
clutches at the sheets with his fingers and toes and arches
and spills and collapses. Panting.

Vague impression of a long, lean body crawling up over
his and Kurt catches at him with his tail. "Mm, Lex..."

Wet sounds, and he opens his eyes to find Lex licking his
fingers. "I could be wrong -- the light in here isn't the
best, but is this... periwinkle?"

"Perhaps a powder."

Lex nods. "Of course." Looks down at the way Kurt's tail
is sliding up and down his side. "Anything else you can do
with that?"

Kurt smiles and turns them over. Wraps the length of his
tail around and around Lex's cock. Squeezes.

"Did I mention that it was a pleasure to meet you?"

Kurt bows his head and concentrates. He can't quite stroke
as well as he can with his hands, but...

"A genuine, wonderful... oh *god* --"

Leans in for another kiss and licks the taste of himself from
Lex's mouth.

"Pleasure."

"Mm," he says, and just barely manages to rub the central
ridge of his tail's point along the head of Lex's cock.

"Oh Jesus *Christ* --"

"Our Lord and savior, yes."

"Wha...?"

And then Lex is coming, clutching at his shoulders and
making a flattering amount of noise.

Kurt licks the sweat from beneath his eyes, and then just
continues down his cheek and up over his scalp. Lex
laughs at bats him away.

"Tickles?"

"Just a bit."

And then they just look at each other for a long moment.
"I..."

"Have to go, right. Don't forget the computer."

"Oh, no, that would be a terrible thing." Kurt uncurls himself
and slips out of the bed, pulling his uniform back into
something like order.

"You know..."

He looks up to find Lex staring at him speculatively. "Hmm?"

"You know your way here *now*..."

Kurt grins. "Oh yes, I think that I could definitely find my
way back."

"You do that." And Lex pulls the sheets back up and waves.

Kurt waves back, and teleports back into the thick of things.
Logan gives him an odd look, but that... is nothing new.

*
Connection
*

They go to mass together every week, or try to. There is
often something that must be done, some mission that
needs to be carried out, or perhaps some small crisis at
the school to be taken care of, but Xavier is very good
about this.

He always finds the time.

The church is not as beautiful as the one he'd found
abandoned in Boston (and who would leave such a place?),
but it is soothing, just the same. Incense, and they have
become regular enough visitors that Xavier's request for
traditional Latin service is met by Father Jameson with a
smile and a nod.

When they go in the mornings, and it is only the two of
them and a handful of quiet elderly women, Father
Jameson slips into Latin easily.

He takes communion, and goes to confession when there
is time.

It is... almost like home. It is not so difficult to imagine
the priest's faint accent is closer to his own, that outside
the doors of the church the streets are cobblestone, that
the wood and statuary is old and crumbling, just a bit.
Candlelight is very forgiving of such fancies.

Kurt always sits at the farthest edge of a pew, Xavier
quiet and watchful beside him.

At first, he'd thought this was something the man did
merely as a favor to him, something to help him become
acclimated. But Xavier murmurs the prayers beside him,
and always lights a candle. The rites and rituals are
familiar to him, and when Kurt had asked, he found out
that Xavier had been raised Catholic.

That there was a time when, perhaps, all of it had meant
the same thing to him as it does to Kurt.

It doesn't seem so, now.

And Kurt is used to this sort of thing. Not many of the
mutants he has known throughout his life have ever been
particularly religious, and many of them had reasons for
it that made him sad.

Preachers giving sermons on hate, parents who called their
children devils or worse.

"God doesn't want us," one young man had told him when
Kurt had given him food and offered to share a moment of
prayer. That had been in Munich, but when he looks at the
others, all of the teachers with black leather uniforms
hidden beneath the school, all of the students with haunted
eyes and families who do not visit...

He sees the same things.

He sees them in Xavier, too, though the man is always
careful, always sensitive of his faith. But... it isn't what he
wants.

He knows the care in Xavier for what it is -- sympathy and
kindness for another person in need, and for the things
they use to ease it, for whatever 'coping mechanism' they
need. As if he was so strange for needing God, for *loving*
God.

And it doesn't seem right, that someone so wise and so
loving as Xavier should be so... separate from that which
connects them all. It seems...

It is hard to listen to him when he speaks of tolerance, of
the heritage they all share, human and mutant, because
*Kurt* knows the only heritage that means anything is
their common Father. Or... not quite the *only* thing that
matters, but certainly the thing that ties everything else
together.

All of God's children, united by love and faith.

Except that he has seen little of either, or little enough
together. He knows that many of the people who subscribe
to his chosen faith would have little to do with him, or
little good. The Pope himself has offered the mutants in
his charge little but the admonishment against using their
powers.

Love the sinner, hate the sin. It is the old song, but Kurt
thinks, maybe, that few people sing it quite right. And
there is danger there, a pride in himself and in his faith
that could lead him away from the right path as much
as anything else, but... It is hard not to believe that
*his* way is the right one.

The truest form of Christianity, in which all is one and
all is loved.

It is something he brings with him to confession, and
with his head bent as low as he is able.

Still, perhaps he could use it, find a way to make his
trips to mass with Xavier something more than duty for
the man.

He finds Xavier in his office, after first asking silently,
diffidently, if he had a moment to spare.

*Of course, Kurt,* he'd thought in his mind, and Kurt
had shivered a little at the intimacy of it. Wondering at
what it must be like to touch the minds (and perhaps
the souls?) of everyone, every day.

He files the thought away for a later conversation and
walks into Xavier's office. Crouches in the chair in front
of the desk, so as not to crush his tail against the back
of it.

"We'll have to find a chair with no back for you."

"Ah, it is nothing, Professor. I am used to it."

A smile. "Perhaps you shouldn't be. And please, what
will I have to do to get you to call me Charles?"

Kurt smiles, but he has to duck his head. Remembers
Mystique by the fire, and the brutal simplicity of her
philosophy.

"Kurt? Is something wrong?" Xavier -- Charles -- wheels
closer. Rests his hand on Kurt's own.

"I... no." Shakes his head. "I was just thinking... that
perhaps the best lesson we can all learn is compromise."

Charles raises an eyebrow. "Yes?"

"I am... I am comfortable like this." Kurt gestures to
himself. "There is no need for special chairs, yes? I
think... I think maybe there are ways for all of us, all
mutants, to live in this world comfortably, even if we have
tails that could be smushed if people are not careful."

Charles looks at him a long time, and nods. "True. Do
you find yourself worried about our cause here, Kurt? Do
you think we are trying to remake the world into
something it isn't?" Gentle-voiced, and genuinely curious.

He cannot feel the slightest touch on his mind, and
wonders what it is like to hold such power in abeyance.
"No, no, that is... your old friend, yes? I would not be
here if I thought you held such ambitions."

Charles smiles at him. "I know you wouldn't, my friend.
I greatly admire your adherence to your morality."

"My *faith*, Charles."

"Yes, I know." He looks away for a moment, seeming to
be focused entirely on the trees beyond his window. "I
think that I know why you're here. I've been... expecting
a conversation about my faith."

"Then you know that I am... worried for you."

Another soft smile. "I am content, Kurt. Be at ease."

"But..." He flails a little, feels his tail whipping back and
forth. "Will you tell me why you no longer believe in God?"

"I would not say that I don't believe, Kurt." Charles rolls
back to him and leans forward a little. "Perhaps it is
simply the habit of a lifetime spent surrounded by the
fantastic, but I am no atheist."

Kurt frowns. "Then... what?"

"There is a theory that God created the universe, and
then left it and all living things on their own, to find their
own way."

"The 'clockwork' theory, yes. I am familiar with it. But...
does it not seem cold to you?"

Warm smile. "Perhaps. But I find it... soothing. A God
who had enough faith in us, enough *love* for us to let
us stumble and learn and grow, without interference."

And that is... not something he has thought about. There
is something almost terrifying about it, like how he
imagines what it must be like for a child to walk away
from his mother. And yet... "And this God will never
return?"

Charles laughs. "I don't think that's for either of us to say.
But, to answer a question you didn't ask, I... I look at
this world's churches, and all of the ways people find to
serve and know the numinous and unseen, and... I can't
quite find a place for myself. For me, it is enough to take
what I've been given and try to be the best man I can."

Kurt grins. "To make your Father proud, yes?"

Charles folds his hands and tilts his head at him. "Perhaps.
Does it make you uncomfortable that I can't share your
faith?"

Kurt catches one of Charles' wrists with his tail, just long
enough to squeeze gently. "I prefer to think it is only a
matter of time."

Charles laughs, open and welcoming, and Kurt has to
watch, has to bask in it a little Charles has a wonderful
laugh, and he does not use it often. It makes him more
real, somehow, human and beautiful.

He leans in and presses a kiss to the corner of his mouth,
soft and dry, and leans back again quickly, blushing
somewhere beneath his skin and bowing his head.

"Kurt...?"

"I... you are a very fine man, Charles, and I appreciate
this time with you. You have given me much to think
about." He looks up again through his lashes to find
Charles watching him curiously.

And then he nods, slow and thoughtful. "As you have with
me, Kurt."

Kurt grins again and jumps down from the chair. "I will
leave you to your work. Thank you."

Charles smiles somewhat ruefully and gestures at the
door. "You're welcome, my friend."

Kurt leaves, closing the office door with his tail.

And thinks about buying Charles a rosary.

*
Faith
*

She is always feeding him.

He has asked her if she thinks he is too thin, and assured
her that he is quite healthy, but she just looks at him
strangely and says that she knows he's fine. And continues
to bring him food.

Homemade hummus -- something he had never had before.
Bowls of clean, cool fruit. Bowls of ice cream, and bowls
of soup, and some special kind of rice that tastes good even
without gravy.

He especially likes the fruit, though, because when she
brings that, sometimes she stays to share it with him.

She cuts peach-flesh away from the stone with a small
knife, and feeds them both with solemn care.

She flies to the roof and bids him teleport to join her, and
they eat out of season apples and fresh, sweet strawberries
until her mouth is red and Kurt's hands are hopelessly
sticky. She smiles at him slyly and calls light rainstorms to
wash them both, throwing her head back and drinking from
the sky.

"Are you not afraid of catching a cold?" And he wonders if
she would consent to wear his coat.

She grins at him, white-eyed and crackling with power he
can feel. "Weather won't hurt me."

Kurt nods, and thinks that this makes nothing but sense.
Bobby cannot ever get too cold for himself. He, himself,
has never broken a bone or sprained a muscle, no matter
how much he tumbled and flipped. There seems to always
be a benefit to mutation, no matter how strange the
mutation itself is.

When he looks up again, she is standing. Or, actually,
hovering. Her arms are up, palms raised to the sky, head
thrown back.

"You are a work of art," he blurts without thinking, and she
thumps back to the roof, falling into a crouch. Kurt winces.
"I'm --"

"Do you draw?" she asks, interrupting his apology. Water
runs down her face, soaking her shirt .

Kurt swallows. "Only on myself." Tries for an apologetic
smile and knows he's staring.

She comes closer, kneels and takes his hand and traces
over the points of his claws lightly with her thumb. The
part in her hair is, perhaps, the most vulnerable seeming
aspect of her, and Kurt wants to cover it. Kiss it. "With
these?"

Kurt blinks, tries to focus. "I... what?"

He can see her smiling, even though he can't quite see her
eyes. "Did you do them with these?"

"I... oh, yes. It seemed... fitting, yes?"

She doesn't answer, but she does look up. A strand of hair
is stuck to her cheek, and Kurt stares, feeling a little
helpless. He knows that he is going to embarrass himself,
very soon, but has no idea how to stop it from happening.
And then there is roughness against his mouth, and the
scent of sweetness.

The last strawberry, and Kurt bites down, taking half. She
watches him and he watches her watching, and he can't
quite taste anything but the acid hints of his own need. And
then she pops the rest of the strawberry in her mouth,
dropping the stem to float in the water pooling in the bowl
they've brought with them.

She eyes him steadily as she chews, unashamed and open
and so beautiful he aches. Soft hand on his face, palm
rubbing against the scars, and there's a curious blankness
in his mind for a moment, two, before he finds himself
kissing her, tasting strawberry on her tongue and smelling
sweet, summer rain all over her.

He slides his hands into her hair and she crawls closer,
straddling his crossed legs and pushing him down into a
puddle. He shivers and she purrs into his mouth, pushing
her hips against his own --

"Oh, oh God --"

-- and biting his lip.

Her eyes are still white, with just a hint of blue at the center.
Difficult to focus on, impossible to look away from, and she
does not seem to blink, just stares down and into him and...
moves.

Dancing against him slow and purposeful, making him hard --
harder -- and making him need.

"Shh," she says, and Kurt realizes he is praying, but it is,
perhaps, not right for this. There has been nothing in his life
more viscerally holy than this moment, but right now, he has
no prayers. Nothing within his experience, or his studies,
though perhaps...

Perhaps something about goddesses, walking the earth
independent of time and the faith of men.

She rears up over him and moves faster, wet jeans against
the wet cotton of his trousers, and Kurt can't help but
buck. Arch and gasp in rain, breath only incidental.

"You are... you are nothing I have ever known..."

She smiles down at him and grinds her hips until he can
only moan. "Good."

*

End.